Devious Journal Entry
Journal Entry:
Thu Feb 11, 2010, 8:05 AM
God! Sorry for starting this journal entry wit hsuch a word, but i have to say i feel very frustrated in myself. Oh and sorry for not being very active lately... I did most things from my to do list except the project writing. I think i wil have to start it, but i simply can't make myself... But besides that i did everything i had to.
Remember my obsession with OC? I am a supergirl, now it is with Gossip girl... Iknow, it sounds stupid to actually care so much about tv shows and movies, but i can't make myself stop wanting to live like that. Not that they have the best lives, no there is still pain, romance, torture, sex, drugs etc. But still, in their 20 years those teenagers have done everything and i believe that somewhere people live like that. And that makes me sick and sad. I want it to be so. Couse in this little country i feel like a sardine. Not that i hate my country, but i don't love it. I love mountains, i love extravagancy, i love opportunities, i love high fashion and most of the other places besides Latvia, Lithuania and Estonia can give it. I can climb mountains in Alpes, i can shop and live extravagant and wear high fashion in New York, it is all i ever wanted, but new york can't give me horses, that is the ONLY THING that keeps me from moving there right away. But now i promise that someday i will o to New York, at least to shop, at most to live for some time, and for the best, visit one of you my friends. And if my legs will be as long as for Serena (Blake Lively) i will also be more happyer.
Oh and i think i am finally getting a tablet for my birtday, or my head will expload from all the thoughts. I need to let them out by art, couse for me, there is no other way.
- Mood:
Rant - Listening to: sounds of my computer
- Reading: Price tags on good books
- Watching: Gossip Girl season 2
- Drinking: Green tea (as allways)